Waching daily May 26 2018

Haaai! Hey guys, how are you? Welcome to one more video!

And in today's video I'll tell you guys a little bit about how's the treatment for bipolar disorder.

I've done videos talking about bipolar disorder already.

By the way, I'll put the link in the description

of my video about how's it being bipolar,

where I talk briefly about the treatment, they use mood stabilizers

and, in some cases, neuroleptics.

But in this video I'll talk more about how my treatment happens.

There's someone working on buildings.

I'll tell you guys a little bit about my story with psychiatrists and such.

So, guys, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder last year but I had it for a while

but since I wouldn't go to psychologists or psychiatrists,

it took a while to find out.

If you listen to noises it's because my dad is working on some stuff.

It was the psychologist I started going to that identified the symptoms,

then I went to the psychiatrist.

That's when a disgrace happened. I got really upset when I went to this guy.

The guy was very rude to me, like... I got there, my first appointment,

then I told him that I used to go to a psychologist and that I was bipolar,

and less than five minutes later he said: "You're not bipolar, it's anxiety only."

Damn, I used to go to a professional and I studied about it,

I even said that in the other video about being bipolar,

who watched it, must know that.

I studied a lot, and I told you guys a lot of what I knew about it.

And I started psychology school, it was my area.

I was sure I was bipolar at that time.

I know the difference between bipolar disorder and anxiety.

Besides that a professional had already told me.

Then he was like: "Have you ever wanted to buy a car?"

I was like:

"Nope, not a car. I wanted to buy things impulsively.

But not, necessarily, a car."

He said: "So you're not bipolar."

I said: "But to be bipolar, you don't need to, necessarily, want to buy a car,

but having this impulsiveness."

"Yes, but, it's not your case because you're aware of it."

Yes, I'm aware of it because I've studied about it.

I know I'm bipolar, I know the symptoms, so I'm aware of it.

I'm aware it happens.

I got very upset. But okay. Moving on.

Then he pretended to believe in me, I pretended to believe in him.

It was awful, I felt awful.

Alright. Then he said: "I will prescribe you a mild mood stabilizer."

Okay.

I took it, he gave me the free sample, I got home and went to search about it

on the internet, because I'm not dumb.

And I found out that the medicine was actually an antidepressant,

and

I even said that in the other video, but you can't take antidepressants in bipolar disorder

because we have the mood change.

Antidepressants are for unipolar depression.

And in bipolar disorder, we have bipolar depression.

We have two poles.

So...

Friends...

Antidepressants can make bipolar disorder worse.

I felt like shit. He didn't believe me and gave me pills that could make me worse

because he simply didn't believe in a, what, five minutes appointment?

Even though I had gone to other professionals before.

It felt so bad, I mean it.

Like...

I was trying to help myself, trying to take care, to be mentally healthy,

but nobody tries to help me. And it's not easy to get an appointment

at an affordable price with a psychologist or psychiatrist,

specially depending on health insurance. It's very complicated.

So I felt very sad, all I wanted was to give up on going to all these doctors,

but then I went to talk to my psychologist about the medicine the psychiatrist gave me.

And he said: "Rebeca, it's not the best to take, but if you're feeling that bad,

you can try it and take it for 7 days. Days enough for it to act,

and then you see.

Alright then. When I was feeling very depressed, because

I got very upset wit what had happened too...

Seriously, I got out of that clinic feeling so bad

and we're not supposed to feel like that when we go to the doctor to take care of ourselves.

I started to take this antidepressant.

But it just would make no difference.

I felt absolutely no difference.

I'd describe like if I were worse, actually.

Sometimes I'd feel like...

If I had a lot of energy. A lot of energy! I was like...

Sometimes I'd get shaking, like, you know when you're very energetic?

It wasn't being good to me.

Then I stopped taking it, and, damn! I felt wonderful...

For a while, right? Then I went back to shit.

But I was great for a while.

But after a while I started feeling very tired.

I went to the doctor, I didn't even think about depression cause I was in a good phase.

But he said it could be depression showing up in a different way.

Then he told me to go to the psychiatrist again.

I didn't want to go! I swear to you guys, I got kinda traumatized. I didn't want to go.

I wasn't going to the psychiatrist and psychologist anymore.

Alright, after a while, I decided to go to another psychiatrist.

And oh my Gosh! What a revolution! What a wonderful psychiatrist!

I got there, you know, kinda suspicious...

I was thinking: "Dear God, will him treat me like the other one?"

Then I said: "Okay... I'm bipolar.

I went to the psychologist for a while.

I went to another psychiatrist but he told me to take an antidepressant

that wasn't being good for me..."

Then he said: "No, antidepressants can't be taken in bipolar disorder,

and etc, etc. And I was like:

This is the guy, you know?

What a man!

I got so happy with his attendance.

Now my treatment is:

since I go more to the depressive side,

in my treatment we use an antidepressant but at a low dosage,

and

a mood stabilizer with a higher dosage

but he already told that our goal is to work with the mood stabilizer only.

I'm not telling the name of the medicines for you guys

because I don't want anyone to be crazy and try to take it on your own,

Nope! If you guys feel like something's wrong, go to a doctor

and they'll know what's the best for you.

And if you don't feel fine with it, you can go back and adjust, until find what fits better.

But do not self-medicate, okay?

And I've been feeling lots better since I've started this new treatment.

I mean it, everyone notices it.

Everyone notices how better I look.

I haven't been going to the psychologist, I should have been going, tho.

It's good to go. Bipolar disorder is a disease that you have to always be checking.

But there's somethings that help me more than therapy: dancing and my pets.

Two things that... Congrats to them.

So, that's it! In my other video, it's more complete about bipolar disorder,

and in this video I wanted to share more about my experience with doctors,

and tell you guys a little about my treatment.

Some people had asked me, like: "Ah, what pills do you take?"

I'm telling the names, cause as I said before, I don't people to self- medicate.

But I also would like to show that if you had a bad experience with a doctor,

keep trying cause it's so good when you take care of yourself and things start working out.

Sometimes things just don't happen as expected.

But things will get better, guys. We have to try to take care of ourselves

and have a quality of *life misspelled*

and have a better quality of life, okay?

So, that's it! Take care! If you enjoyed this video,

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And that's it! Tchau!

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